Cards

It's been a while, hasn't it? my blurry and busy life hasn't lend me a time to take a break, think and write, all at once.

now i'm stealing a moment or two, to print out my recent thoughts

let's begin...

i had the cards read to me. they freaked me out. not a surprise there in itself, i do acknowledge tarot and it's uses. what freaked me out, is how they told me the things i've been denying to myself, and what i needed to hear to get going in the right path. or i least i believe so right now.

they told me i'm been selfish, reckless, too hyperventilated and stubborn for my own good. i'm not letting anyone help me, i'm not taking into account anyone's advises, but at the same time, i'm letting the fluctuations of the present state of things to influence my choices. they told me I have the capacity to do what I have and want to, that i'm careing, loving. a good friend. that i can be responsible, hard worker. but, i'm right now in a moment when even the things i thought real and true before, are been questioned. i've nothing true right now, and because of that, i can't compromise on anything, even if I have the ability to success. because of that, i'm grabing myself onto an ideal. a plan, a goal. and i'm not considering any other options, nor letting anyone convince me otherwise. and so the circle begins again.

it can't be any more true

they also told me that i'm in a moment when everything can be changed. i'm in a breaking point. and so, i can fix everything up.

they recomend me to moderate myself. to calm and slow down. to let others help me. to think clearly, not by the influence of the moment i'm going through.

i might just listen to them


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