I have the bad habit of imagine myself in different life situations. sometimes it's just for the lack of doing anything else, sometimes it works as a premonition of things to come. so, to prepare myself emotionally for whenever the imagined situation happens, I go through the posible aspects, so it wouldn't come as a surprise...
this time wasn't any different
I knew since a long time ago it would happen. it was just a matter of time, and I had prepared my mind for the inevitable. I thought I was ready.
now I'm starting to doubt it.
cold minds think diferently than sadded, shocked or angrier ones. although mine is all but shocked, it still plays funny things inside itself, getting me unsure of how to react or how I would in this or that momment in time.
one thing is for sure: there is nothing I can do to stop it. and, if I'm bluntly honest, neither I want to stop it. why would I? I've known since my fifth grade that this would come eventually.
after all, my parents aren't meant for each other
why would I try to keep them together then?
the only problem is... even though I've imagine every possible scenario...
i still don't know how I will react when my dad finally decides to leave us.
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