just a simple request

Would you do me a favor?

Stop wondering Who I am and start asking yourself the same question.


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... † Παŋα Иσ Zγσμσμ .•.•‡ •


P.S: Yes, I'm not in the best mood for preying eyes

Hate

- pictures
- people taking me pictures
- people taking me pictures, and then revealing them to me
- revealed pictures, that show the truth bluntly

I'm usually a secretive person. used not to trust people in general, so you might understand why I tent to hide my real thoughts and feelings from praying eyes and hears.

have been bretrayed too many times to just let them on the loose for everyone to see.

now, that doesn't always work. there is someone from time to time who can actually see in between lines, read my subtitles, and catch the truth behind my acts.

I hate it when in happens.

it's not that I don't like to have someone to trust, but it's always easier if I can just make people believe what they or I want to, so to have full control.

I hate to be insecure about everything and anything, not knowing what to expect, so when this person appears... it always frustrates me.

after all, i always end up been hurt...


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... † Παŋα Иσ Zγσμσμ .•.•‡ •

Palpikismo

dicese del estado de estress intenso, falta de sueño por semanas, y constante sensación de falta de tiempo, al contemplar la lista de responsabilidades a realizar en un muy corto plazo.

estado reconocido al momento de responder a la pregunta "¿como estás?" con un "pal piko".

término instaurado por mis predecesores políticos, e integrado al vocabulario inmediato de todos quienes componen mi pequeña gran familia universitaria.

estado en el que me encuentro sumergida hoy, mañana, y la proxima semana.


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... † Παŋα Иσ Zγσμσμ .•.•‡ •

.::.Scenario.::.

frankly, when someone said "no one knows what it feels like till it happens to them" wasn't quite right in his assertion.

I have the bad habit of imagine myself in different life situations. sometimes it's just for the lack of doing anything else, sometimes it works as a premonition of things to come. so, to prepare myself emotionally for whenever the imagined situation happens, I go through the posible aspects, so it wouldn't come as a surprise...

this time wasn't any different

I knew since a long time ago it would happen. it was just a matter of time, and I had prepared my mind for the inevitable. I thought I was ready.

now I'm starting to doubt it.

cold minds think diferently than sadded, shocked or angrier ones. although mine is all but shocked, it still plays funny things inside itself, getting me unsure of how to react or how I would in this or that momment in time.

one thing is for sure: there is nothing I can do to stop it. and, if I'm bluntly honest, neither I want to stop it. why would I? I've known since my fifth grade that this would come eventually.

after all, my parents aren't meant for each other

why would I try to keep them together then?

the only problem is... even though I've imagine every possible scenario...

i still don't know how I will react when my dad finally decides to leave us.



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... † Παŋα Иσ Zγσμσμ .•.•‡ •

.:·:.deserved?.:·:.

should a life come to this world surrounded by fear, guilt, insecurity?

does a child deserve it?

how? what have they done to deserve such a living, unsure of themselves and who cares for them...

does the parents deserve it?

maybe, who knows? and who are we to point with our fingers the punishment people should get?

who are we to hand what people deserve?

if that's the case, why should a life be handed as punishment, or price?

why sould a life be thought as consecuence that might ruin someone's life?

childs are no toys... and they certainly deserve to have a clean start in life

not unsteable ... not having something firm to hold themselves


my heart cries for every life conceive by mistake and born as a consecuence...

for every soul bond to another not by pure choice...

for everytime the upcoming life isn't recived with the joy it deserves...

with a clean start


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... † Παŋα Иσ Zγσμσμ .•.•‡ •